Psyched Up

It took everything in me to tell my mother that I wanted to see a counselor. She was new to the profession, young. She had been in my sister's graduating class. This, mixed with her clean-cut, fashionable, and preppy appearance made me uncomfortable. I could meet her in town at the Mercy building. I parked... Continue Reading →

COVID

January 9thThe alarm wakes me up. I get dressed and drive to the drug store. It takes around ten minutes to get my booster and leave. I visit our old church. I'm one of a very few who wear a mask the whole time. I don't hug anyone or shake any hands. A few hours... Continue Reading →

Parent Questionnaire

Has your child ever or does your child currently struggle with social interactions including any of the following: (▢ Never ▢ Past (Not Now) ▢ Rarely ▢ Sometimes ▢ Often) Approaches people in unusual ways (e.g. licks others, hugs strangers)?Does not initiate conversations with others?Engages in one-sided conversations (e.g. talks excessively about own interests)?Does not... Continue Reading →

Official?

I started the diagnostic process in October of 2020 and received my report in January of 2022. I am officially diagnosed with Social Anxiety Disorder, Depression and "Autism - Rule Out" with the recommendations of Individual Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and possible psychiatric consultation to help with medication that will work with my seizures to help... Continue Reading →

Testing

October 2020My counselor suggests that I see about testing for at the Autism and ADHD center. I find the website and put in a request. I hear back quickly. Within a few weeks, I fill multiple forms on the patient portal, and receive a thick packet of several hundred questions to fill out and send... Continue Reading →

Neurodivergent Love Languages

Info-dumpingNerding out. Sharing, in detail and length, your favorite interests and passions. A look into your favorite parts of yourself.Parallel PlayBeing okay being alone together. Comfort in the quiet. Engaging in your passions independently in the same space. Enjoying one another's presence without needing to touch or talk.Support SwappingAccommodate and support one another. Remind each... Continue Reading →

War

Intrusive thoughtsBolstered by Those who lack boundariesControl: Keep it, Lose it, Seek itThat Insatiable NeedA Bedrock for Religion, Culture, and Politics There is danger in losing our sense of selfBut war is triggered in theft of another's identityPersonal connection to a faceless iconThe Other, less than human, less than UsFear of Them to protect the... Continue Reading →

Self. Harm.

**Trigger Warning** At 7 years old, I got upset. My sister-in-law had false labor. The excitement of finally meeting my first niece had plummeted into a gut-wrenching anger mixed with that lump-in-my-throat sadness. I shut down, stopped talking, and went right to my room once we were home. I found a silly cartoon that I... Continue Reading →

Antidepressants

Lexapro. Klonopin. Prozac. Paxil. Over the last two weeks, how often have you been bothered by the following problems? Not At All, Several Days, Over Half the Days, Nearly Every Day? Feeling nervous, anxious or on edge? Not being able to stop or control worrying? Worrying too much about different things? Trouble relaxing? Being so... Continue Reading →

Do you have Asperger’s?

I was twenty-four and working at a before and after school program when I met Emily. The very tall, smart, and sweet fifth grade girl, her blonde hair pulled back neatly into a ponytail, sat at a tattered table, eating snack and reading her recently assigned book. Looking up at me, she smiled and showed... Continue Reading →

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